im sorry if i did not update for super long time. its like more than a month. the weather is so freaking hot! or is it just me? anyways a whole lot of things to cover in a month so i better start now.

i got my first warning letter and i didnt show mommy. i like so freaking disappointed at myself. ever since S&W was included in the attendance, my attendance fell in short below par. ever since i started 2nd year, i only went to S&W once and it is 15%. pathetic i know. projects is not that smooth sailing i email POM late. have a last minute discussion on this friday on EOP. it kinda suck. but hey group work right? i want to say i want to improve on my studies but i cant promise i can just try my hardest. well school starting next week and i kinda hate that i didnt do something productive.

please dont get me started. going in and out of relationships i mean having trouble with finding someone that is willing to stay commited. i know im annoying, irritating and so much more. but i think i deerve something right? its hard but i told myself that i want to quarantine myself from having a boyfriend till my birthday. i try my very best yeah??? hahhaha like the three-o say: nora single? Last Long. so Last Long to Singlehood.

im kinda getting better. after taking good care of diet, i think i can manage myself. still getting chest pain everynow and then but there is this thing call endurance. it ha been tough keeping this away from my family, but i dont want them to worry waste their money on me again. it is better if i stay quiet for now. maybe the money i save up i use for my check up? i just dont want the bad news if there is one.my anaemia got back so i have to be careful with diet and all that. one thing about it is that it tire yourself fast. but i always fail to keep a steady pace. i also cant really sleep that well. i only get to sleep a few hours a day. and i know it is not helping my health.

i dont know what to say. i like in between maybe hehehe.

i have a new Baking Buddy name Azri Shah. yes he is an Azri too. haha. he loves to bake. one day we decide to meet up and bake over at his place since mine is off limits to my guy friends. nevermind, at least i get to bake again right? finding my pink book of recipes soon hehehe. we are going to bake sometime next week while watching movie. hoorah! just hope he wont sleep and snore hahaha. ok inside joke. Favourite Girl and i spending our holidays together. bonding you know. iLuv her so freaking much! went out have fun. at this hard times, she is there for me. that is why, she i my Favourite Girl. one than that all my friends the old and the new, i appreciate being there eventhough one just left me today. my eyecandy since april, Ahmad Amin. we are no longer friends i dont know why. back to strangers again i guess.

it has super havock. madness all around. i wish i am serving NS like abg aji. he didnt get to face this every single day. so fucking fed up. but hey its life huh? all i know in 6 mths my parents are divorced. life after that? wait and see.

i have change a whole lot through this month. become more mature and less self centered. i have to grow up fast to be a good role model for alfiee. atleast someone is trying to set a good example. or atleast taking care of him. ok back to me. it has be tough for me but i some how i make it all work. im still here right? july had been tough on me and it is still on the 6th. 25 more days to go till the end of july and hello to august! birthday baby! im going legal!

what i want for birthday? a nice memorable birthday.

and maybe a nice shoe, a wallet and a school bag. yeah but i know i wont get any of those. i never get a true birthday celebration. birthday has always been a sucky day for me. i dunnoe why the worst day of august always happen on the 24. maybe on the 23rd i will count down myself? Tuesday, 24 August 1993, 1:45 am. yes i remember the day, time and date. hehehe. do some research uhh hahaha.

ouhkay i will update soon once im free and feel likle typing a whole lot. sorry for nagging hahah. Peace!